I miss you too. I had coffee with a new friend last week, or at least a girl that i met at a ladies' worship night... and it just wasn't the same. i find myself trying to make small talk with people, but i always know that it'll never be as deep as my relationships with you guys. the good news is that i know i can always get you guys when i need you though. when jim died, i knew if i called and had to leave a message, it wouldn't be long before i heard back from you. and it was true. that's how i know that you're my best friends. and that's enough for me. there's no doubt that y'all will always be considered my best friends, no matter who else comes along.

jason's company is hoping for funding this week. every week for the last four weeks, they've planned as if it were their last week in business, so i am praying for him and for the family and for the business every day.

well, i wished i prayed every day, but i don't. when i think about it. which stinks because it seems like my spiritual life suffers. daily. and then i feel guilty that i feel like i used to be on track and now i'm not. can you really go backward spiritually? cause that's what i feel like. and it's no one's fault but my own. which makes me feel more guilty that i can't blame it on anyone else. or anything else. just me. irresponsible, unfaithful me. and yet human me.

i'm trying to be more disciplined in a lot of things. working out. quiet time. eating right. but some days... who cares? and yet i know i should.

do i sound depressed? cause i'm not. i got new couches this weekend, so there's a perk. no more orange floral hand me down sofas. another college moment gone forever. another step in growing up.